Sorrow and Joy


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I was trying to figure out what to blog about this week, when I opened up my emails and found out that All You Can Eat has been named a finalist for a Lambda Literary Award in the Best Lesbian Erotica category.AllYouCanEat-197x300

I’m a little stunned. The odds of making the finalist list are small, as they get so many entries. This is not only my first Lambda shortlist, but my first any major award shortlist (although, we did get an honorable mention for a Rainbow Award—that was cool). I mean, I’ve been in anthologies that have been shortlisted or won, but this is the first one that I really consider “mine.”

I also want to extend congratulations to all the Lammy finalists. It’s quite an achievement.

I’m very proud of the work that Andi and I did, as well as the great stories that all the authors submitted. Ylva was great to work with and was willing to let Andi and I see our vision through. I’ve said this many times—putting together an anthology is a lot of work. But when you end up with such a great product, it will all have been worth it. And it was.

I got this great news in the midst of some sorrow—one of my kitties has cancer and will be crossing the Rainbow Bridge in a few days—and I’m not sure if it’s a good thing or a bad thing.

On the one hand, the good news lifted me out of my funk a little and it was a bright spot in my otherwise depressing day. On the other hand, I feel like I can’t enjoy this great news fully because I have this awful thing going on. I’m trying to hold on to the joy while not forgetting that I’m about to lose my sweet little guy.

I want to make sure that I process the bad things and duly allow myself to feel the full range of emotions that I have inside. But I don’t want the sorrows of life to diminish the joys.

Was this a coincidence, or did the Universe arrange for these things to coincide? (There’s that question again!). I’ll never know, but maybe—just maybe—I can extract some message from this.

In the meantime, I want to congratulate all the writers in AYCE, and Ylva Publishing.Lambda-Medal-150x150

For a full list of finalists, go HERE.


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