Liz McMullen took a moment away from her busy schedule promoting the work of other lesbian authors and dropped in to say a few words here about her own writing. She recently released a sexy short story called Hard Rock Candy, see the hot cover over there?
Liz kindly offered to give away a copy here at Women and Words. You know you want in on that action, so leave a comment in the space below. I’ll pick a winner next Friday, 1/10/14.
Until then, let me hook you up with more fabulous ways to learn about Liz. You can check out her online podcast, The Liz McMullen Show, HERE. Or you can say hey on facebook HERE. And of course you can buy her story HERE.
Why Don’t You Make a Choice?
by Liz McMullen
There is more to “Hard Rock Candy” than spicy language and intense driving passion. I wrote the butch on butch pairing because they are so rare in lesbian fiction, and very often a taboo. Acceptance for different expressions of gender is growing, but masculine women loving other masculine women are markedly absent from fiction. I know a lot of it is matter personal taste, but the lack of stories about butch women who prefer butch lovers renders their experience invisible. Some women like their lovers to have attributes that are in contrast to their own, whereas others are looking for women just like themselves. The more socially acceptable version of the latter are two androgynous women or the straight male favorite, feminine women luxuriating in each other’s company.
My perceived gender is femme, and I can see where people get the idea, most of the pictures I have online support this notion, but I have a special collection of images. They are visible place markers for my butch leanings. I keep these online for two reasons, to be in contrast with other’s perception of me and as a testament to the integral part of myself…my butchness. I love walking in a room and owning my space. I love feeling virile, powerful, and potent.
As I grew older, I decided to write my own script. Time and time again I was asked, “Why don’t you just make a choice?” My standard reply was that I do, every time I get dressed I make a choice. Heck playing dress up while listening to loud music was half the fun of going out in the first place. One evening I would be sparkly femme in platform heels, a silver mini dress and body glitter. The next night I would wear my heavy black boots with a plain white tee tucked into low slung jeans. Sometimes I wanted to be fluid, a chameleon blending with my surroundings.
These days, comfort rules supreme. My uniform is a cotton tee, cargo shorts, and sneakers. Even when I dress up I choose the simplest outfits, and never sacrifice comfort for fashion. I’ve settled down a lot, but that spunky young woman is still in me somehow. These days she shows up on the page.
When I wrote “Hard Rock Candy,” I wanted the sex to be raw, with toe curling exhibitionism. I wanted it to be about fucking and clashing in the sheets rather than making love. Not because butches can’t relate to each other emotionally, but because that was not was Lea or Jade wanted that night. The fact that they were both butches made their fruit deliciously forbidden. Their sex was transgressive and intoxicating.
There was another important element I included, something that I have learned over the years…even with hard core sex between strangers, an emotional connection is forged. Primal sex by its very nature moves its participants. Sometimes the release is so intense there are tears. Lea and Jade may not be on the track for love, but they are fierce, they are brave, and they connect on a deeper level. It’s my hope that you will enjoy their journey, and perhaps open a door inside yourself that you never knew existed.