This week, I was going to blog about my latest project, a novella series, but I encountered some problems with it that may end up delaying the release of the first book. And this has been causing me quite a bit of angst.
When you think that something’s going along just fine, and you’re almost done with it, and you’re really happy that your creation is just about ready to see the light of day, and then something occurs that prevents that from happening, something happens to you as a writer. Something deep and dark.
I kind of unraveled for a while, unable to write or even think about it. I had begun writing the second book in the series and that just came to a screeching halt. It’s been a couple of weeks now, and I haven’t written a word.
It’s amazing how you can be traumatized by something that completely derails you and stops you from pursuing an important activity in your life. But I’m starting to realize that in a situation like that, you sometimes just need to step back and take a break.
It’s been a busy writing year for me, as I was involved in many projects, and I discovered that it was very much like musicians who go on extended tours. One city turns into another and another and after a while, the musicians don’t know where they are anymore, and during a concert, they might shout out, “Hello, Wichita!” when in reality, they’re in Little Rock. That’s a little bit how it became for me.
This is the first writing break I’ve had in a while and it may not be a bad thing, even though it feels bad. The break was unintentional, believe me. But I’m hoping that in a few more days, my brain will have cleared from all the traffic of this past year and I will be able to sort through my situation.
I’m not sure what the fate of my novella is at this point, but whatever decision I make, I will hopefully make with clarity and certainty.
Well, I can hope.