As my writer’s block continues, it amazes me how easily we fall into a dark place where we feel we will be stuck forever. It’s a really deep, disturbing psychological thing.
I remember feeling the same way when I ended up in the hospital with a bleeding ulcer. I had lost a lot of blood and required 2 transfusions. After being in the hospital for 5 days, I went home but was out from work for 3 weeks (I went back too soon). While I was home, I felt so weak. Anything I did tired me out so quickly. And I thought that I was never going to feel better again. I thought, this is going to be it for the rest of my life. Of course, it wasn’t. I got better and stronger after a while. I just needed to be patient and rest.
It’s the same way right now with my writing. I’ve been feeling incapable, uninspired, and unproductive. And I feel like I’m never going to get my mojo back.
I’m trying to remind myself daily of what it felt like when I was sick, and how it turned out to be untrue. I guess everyone goes through phases of unproductivity in various areas of life. The hard part is not falling into the trap of believing that it will never get better.
I’m considering this period one of rest (that’s what I keep telling myself). Hopefully, I’ll rebuild my strength soon and be back at work.