I’m a bit of a bulldozer. I just stumble through life and respond as needed. I’ve always been a quick thinker, able to process information with ease, so that’s never been a problem. I exist in my own little world, spending more time in my head than with other people. For example, several years ago, I drove the same route to work every day. It took a full two months for me to realize that I had a spectacular view of Mt. Hood during my morning commute.
Tara, on the other hand, pays attention to everything. She notices patterns that would escape me, especially from one season to the next. Don’t get me wrong, I know the difference between spring, summer, fall, and winter, also known as rainy, less rainy, rainy, cold and rainy here in Portland. But I need her to point out things like people go a little crazy around Halloween and it doesn’t let up until after the New Year.
Of course, this time of year I’m a little too wrapped up in my own head to realize that things are happening with other people too. As the daylight hours shorten, so does my energy and interest in things. That’s why, I think, I get a little crazed in late summer/early fall, rushing to finish as many projects as possible before my brain checks out for the season.
As I retreat into my shell, Tara becomes even more aware of the world around us. She’s noticed a trend that I find really disturbing, but I’m not sure if it’s real or if it’s just a change in the way media reports the news. Or maybe it’s a change in the way we hear the news. That trend is a (perceived) sharp uptake in violent crimes throughout the northwest. There are more shootings, more armed robberies, more murders, more suicides…just more.
So, this year I’m going to try to pull my head out of my shell just a little bit. I’m going to try to be kinder, gentler, more patient–with others and with myself. I’m not expecting to change the world or anything. But I’d really like to think I could change at least one person’s mood. Maybe not forever, but for a little while.