Happy Monday Afternoon…
Perhaps you noticed I didn’t say “morning.” It’s been a while since I’ve posted a blog. So, way after the fact, I’m hoping everyone had a happy holiday season – no matter which (or if) you have a Deity to celebrate the time with.
We celebrate family time, gratitude for the love we have together, and voice how blessed we are.
Here’s some truth… I can’t remember if I’ve posted this blog before – or how many – so – if it at all looks familiar except for the date (LOL) carry on without me, I’ve forgotten it entirely.
Now, I’m going to tell you that I’ve deleted over a thousand words from this blog because it all dealt with how I felt about the
idiot him it- whatever.
Instead, let me put all of the deleted text in shorthand….
I’ve missed that part of me that looks for the sunshine and half-full glass. I’ve missed that part of me who wakes up bouncing in anticipation for the new day. I really miss her.
That part of me must have misplaced along with my memory after my heart attack in 2015 (another lost year.) Which is odd because you would think I would live life to the fullest and never look back, right? No, I went the other way and stepped back afraid to TO live because what if I screwed up again?
It’s about time to change that.
As I write this I’m looking at a “goal” sheet I wrote at the end of 2015 for the 2016 year. I wrote out the categories in pretty colored pens, I made a journal to match it, and hung it right in front of my computer.
It’s titled 2016 – the best year ever.
Confused yet? I kinda am…. LOL.
And now, I get to post same exact picture.
If I’ve ever learned anything about resolutions – it’s that the more I call them resolutions the harder I kick against them. It’s much easier for me to call them goals.
For me: Resolutions implies that I’m a bad person and I need to “fix” myself.
And who the hell wants to be told what to do?
Brings me to another point – Deadlines. I’m going to have change that word. For me it implies I have to finish OR – I’m a complete doody for not doing so which brings me to: “I can’t do anything right or on time – because I’m a doody…”
Language is important people!
I DO remember vaguely writing blogs about missing deadlines…
That being said. I spent the entirety of 2017 writing my book “Paradigm.” Which will be tentatively in print by Halloween. How great is that?
The book goes back to my paranormal roots – and I’m being honest when I tell you, there are parts that scared me to death, and I wrote them! Maybe it should be classified as a horror/romance.
More on Paradigm later… 🙂
What I remember most about 2017 and my last note about it: Thank you to those who purchased my romantic comedy, Meet Me in the Middle – I appreciate you!
See there? You’ve ridden the ADD rollercoaster in Vonnie-Land for the first time in 2018!
Unless of course, Dear god, I’ve written the same blog four (or is it five?) years in a row and only the date has been changed – then you stopped reading in the beginning. My only defense on that is – I warned you.
Is anybody else writing up goal sheets?
Or resolutions – if you prefer?
I’m pulling out my pens and making a concentrated effort. You could say I’m setting a goal to make my goal sheet.
Anything is possible.