It might have something to do with a Steam sale happening right now, but my productivity in terms of writing has been suffering for a month and I don’t like it. I always enjoyed college much more than high school, after all it is a better experience… in every way but one. Unlike the two and a half months off that youngins get, I’m stuck with a whooping four. My last class was somewhere around the first week of May, and classes begin in the last few days of August, and I am withering away in a pit of unreliable scheduling and a brain broken from both boredom and my own self insufficiency.
As the only member of my family who currently doesn’t have a normal week’s schedule (i.e. I have 3 part time jobs that only take up two days of the week all together), I am responsible for a lot of little things, and while I have entire days free, they consist of frequent interruptions that don’t allow me any large chunk of time to sit down and write. My writing process sucks and I don’t have enough self-control to get it in check, but the thing that worries me most is that while I’ve been writing for a while now (coming up on five years in a couple months) I have difficulty finishing anything.
My motivation has been suffering too, and it isn’t entirely the fault of how fun Fallout 4 is, although that is a contributing factor (curse you Steam and your charming, cheap wiles). I need to have a completely full schedule to function semi-well. I always take 5-6 courses, and usually end up with very little if any free time during school sessions, and when I do get home that’s when the writing is the best. Now with no 18-credit monster breathing down my neck, the slacking is in full swing, and I am in disappointment-at-Val mode.
I know what you’re gonna say: “Take it easy! Everyone needs some time to slack off!” NO. I’ve been slacking for far too long, and there comes a point when we have to get our heads out of our a***s and just get to work. So I guess this blog is more of an incentive for me to write than anything else, cause now y’all are witness to my laziness. I think I’ll just do it, like not bother with times and schedules, but just sit down and make my fingers type the stupid words out. I feel like this isn’t just a ‘me’ thing, so if you’re also someone experiencing this, then take those boot straps and pull them up or whatever that idiom is, give me some slack I haven’t been writing lately.