Have y’all been able to read lately? I sure know I haven’t. I’m a graduate with no full time job, and as such I have been home a lot lot lot. I’m more than certain that so have many of you, or at least that is my hope, getting sick is no joke and I’m glad that so many are taking the care to stay safe. Regardless, this means that I have more free time than I ever had in my entire life. Hours and hours I can use to read! Except head muscle is not cooperating. I have talked about this with a friend, and we’ve come to realize that there might be a good reason for it.
I have two degrees in English. The last five years of my schooling consisted of reading at least 2-3 books a week for classes, with on average 100 pages of weekly editing, and another handful of short stories and essays thrown in for me to read. I would go to class, use my three-hour daily commute to read as much as I could, then get home and read, and after finishing up with my school reading, I would pick up a book for pleasure and… that’s right, read. I read a lot. So why is it, that now with all of this time, the books make it as far as getting picked up, but more often than not, I can’t even make myself open the pages.
Well, here’s the thing. When my schedule was cuckoo bonkers busy, reading for fun allowed me to decompress after all the schoolwork. It let my thoughts calm, gave me a respite from rushing, let me rest. Now, with all the rest in the world, my body can’t seem to settle down. There needs to be constant input that emulates busyness, action. There’s a phone in my hand and a laptop in the other 90% of the time. I’m chatting with a million discord groups at any given moment. My DnD sessions increased from one every to weeks, to three different campaigns a week (I actually cut down and left one because it was starting to take an emotional toll on me). I even started playing an MMO, I have never played those cause of the massive time sink.
So yes, I have the time, but reading has become difficult, because there’s nothing I need to decompress from other than all of the decompressing. How are y’all doing with reading?